I find that everything has been an uphill battle lately. Nothing can just be easy. Whether it be the actual situation or how I'm managing to deal (or not deal in many situations). School just feels never ending, a meaningless yet very expensive series of me sitting awkwardly in a class full of people who would never bother to talk to me, work hurts, it's cold, tiring and thankless, I'm underpaid and under appreciated. My relationship is struggling, we have hit a standstill, a point where neither of us are ready to leave, but not ready to compromise what we want in our future. I have one friend, one person who is always there, willing to listen. I rarely see him, and our small amount of phone conversations have been very short and awkward, I've known him for 8 years, and suddenly we have spent many hours of our days talking on MSN, but a male friend you've had for years is always different than the female confidant that I am always on the hunt for.