will you tell all of your friends, you've got your gun to my head
2005-03-28, 10:04 p.m.

last night... i woke up this morning, and i hoped it was a dream. wanting to continue the tears that didn't fall last night. i feel... deflated. im in at pen's house. came to register for my classes. darren told me last night that he could no longer be my boyfriend, i collasped and cried in his arms like i havn't done to anybody in so long. and i'm not so sure why, if he doesn't want to be with me why should i fight it and make him fake it? we talked, cried and compromised. i can't say as i'm happy with our arrangement, but i suppose it will do for now. we're still together. we'll see what happens, if we have the ability to get a long with each other. i guess when you love somebody... and you think everything is going well, and they seem to be having different ideas, it's tough. but im going to let pen go to sleep *thanks for sharing your computer babe* and i'll go home and watch tv in bed.

life - death