i can feel again. after a few monthes of not really knowing what i felt or what i thought. i cried for the first time in monthes. after that i was really happy, i love having my full range of emotions, but i quickly came to the realization that i am in fact devastated. for more reasons that one. i try so hard to cover it up. it's so easy to avoid the truth you are compltely numb inside. when you told me it was like i was dead... i guess it wasn't so far from the truth. i guess this is better than apathy?