I have some goals. And I have to accomplish them in order to bring back my feelings of worthyness towards myself. I'm not sure that sentence necessarily makes sense but I think what I'm trying to say is made clear enough.
These are my goals for the upcoming monthes:
I'm going to be nice.
I will treat my boyfriend and my best friend the way they deserve to be treated.
No being a bitch to the boy, or ditching Pen.
I will be happy at work, or find a job that makes me happy.
I will get my 240, I will earn it, and I will NOT crash it.
I will go to the gym.
I will feel good about myself.
I will get more sleep
I will save some money, and pay off my visa. (DAMN VISA TO HELLLL)
and most importantly. I WILL DANCE MY ASS OFF. EVERY WEEKEND.
I'm fairly excited about these goals, because i think they are broken up enough to be somewhat accomplishable. is that a word? But I am also very excited about the fact that I won a LIMO RIDE to the Whiskey next week!! I've never been in a limo, whenever they park outside my store for all the weddings and stuff downtown, I whine about it to all the boys. And I've really never won anything either!! Does anybody want to come? I have room for 6-10 people including me.
Well I have 14 hours down and only 24 more to go this week. My bank account will thank me.
I would like to start using this diary again. But the way I see it, that as I have gradually lost interest in myself over the past few monthes, I have also lost interest in writing about my very boring life. I guess it's not that boring, considering that if I had my choice I would be doing NOTHING this summer, like NOTHING NOTHING. I guess that would be boring to some. But after going to school full time for the past 8 monthes and working through all of that, all I really want to do is sleep. Watch movies, snuggle and dance. Well I best be off to bed.