Last night I typed an entry on my tablet. I had to take internet from my phone in order to get online (the wifi in Darren's parent's basement sometimes isn't great) then painfully typed out the entry on my tablet, which took forever. And then couldn't get a connection so I could post it... and then before I got it sorted out, accidentally clicked the x. It was one of those moments where I had to talk myself out of being upset for a minute. "is getting upset really going to solve anything? NO. Calm down."
Last year at this time I was in California. On December 27th, 2012 Courtney and I went to Huntington Beach and Long Beach.
I wish that all the words that came to me last night, were coming back to me tonight, but it just isn't happening for me tonight.
I guess what I can say is that Mexico was great, although a week with inlaws--is a lot of inlaws. Although I don't mean it to complain in the least.
Christmas was good. Even though it was my 8th Christmas living away from my parents, it was still hard for me to leave them at the end of it all. We stayed there on Christmas Eve (me and Darren slept on the floor in the living room on our airbed and Aunty Wendy slept on the couch beside us.) It seemed like a bit of an eccentric family behaviour, but it was fun, it felt good to be a part of everything instead of being the person who has to leave half way through everything like usual.
I still have 5 more days off work, which is such a good feeling. I don't think I have had 5 days in a row to spend in our new house yet and I am really looking forward to it. The New Year is supposed to be bringing mass lay offs to SNC, "right-sizing" they are calling it. And our department head talked about it in depth at our last meeting. He said finance should be ok... until the end of January. And something keeps telling me that I will likely be a part of these lay offs and even though I don't love my job, I love getting paid and being able to pay my bills every month. So it's a stressful thought.
So... It has been one year since I went to California. It is -13 in Calgary right now, but feels like -26, we have wind and flash freeze warnings because it was so warm for the past few days. It's good that I was planning on being a hermit for the next few days anyways, because I tend to be especially anxious about traveling on poor roads this winter. Living so far south has made me feel so isolated. Nobody wants to come visit this far, and I'm too anxious to leave because this winter has been so horrendous. Oh well, hiding out here and cleaning (theoretically) for a few days after being gone so much for the past 2 weeks definitely won't hurt.