i have typed many entries in the past couple days. and immediately clicked the X after finishing them. nothing can quite sum this all up. i don't know what to say. so it's resulted in nothing. i'm clinging to darren, and i know it. i cling when im anxious or scared. it feels good, it really does. we were supposed to go to a punk show tonight. but we couldn't find The Venue, we walked up 10th a couple times, drove up and down it. called for directions...and we never did make it. it reminded me of some of my favourite lyrics "we were lost but holding hands" right now i think that there is absolutely nothing in the world better than holding hands. the other night i fell asleep holding darren's hand... nothing could have been better. a "throne" was built for me at work today, due my broken ass and inability to walk or stand for more than 5 minutes at a time. it was really really nice. well i'm going to have a quick bath and perhaps watch some sex &the city. (season 5 ohhh yeah) so good night all. sorry for my lack of communication with anybody. see ya someday.