i don't care for college. i should have waited a year. im far too young. i have no friends. i don't speak at all. i sat in the library for an hour and 45 minutes alone today. after i did a couple things. got my $500 scholarship which is awesome. im planning on trying to buy a car within the next 5 days. it is proving to be harder than i thought. not much goes for less than around 1300 bucks... yeah well. i've been sick for 2days now. my eyes won't focus on anything. and once again im soo incredibly fucking alone.
i miss you so much sweetie. i was in my class today and it was 2:45 when i realized you were in another city, and how much i hate that, i almost cried in class. but i've done enough crying for one day. so i didn't. yeah im gonna go sleep or something. i havn't eaten anything today, so maybe i should.